I'm The Girl But Not Your Girl

       

Behind my wall,

I was a girl, who you like to bully,

 Listen to you when you feel so badly,

Lost my ego just to be with you comfortably,

And stick on you even it sounds carelessly

Behind my wall,

I tried to understand your flaws

I appreciated your simple hello’s

 Ignored the harsh joke of yours

But still I felt that you did was just for a show

On your wall,

I feel so confused with colorful words

You wrapped me that I fell so secured

But unintentionally, I’m so injured

Aren’t you feel or you’re just so scared?

On your wall,

There’s the truth you said

I was so naive but scared

I was shot by your voice, I was dead

Emotionally, terrified with uncured bleed.

Our walls,

I assumed there’s a love battle

Our feelings of wanting to get better

Now the truth chasing what's matter

about the friendship that call to be together.

I’ll try to make my wall away from you. I know you will call me stalker, go! I will not deny. It’s the only way I can do to keep my smile on my face.

WALLING

        We have days that we don't like our personality. We don't like to talk. All we want is to travel with no destination. We want to scream and explain! But we Can't. In fact, I don't know how and why, it is messed just like my mind. It is not easy to keep in silent but we have to. 

I can't turn back the times,

and I admitted that for now you are a chaos on my thoughts

'coz I was a statue when you are there.

You poisoned my heart for giving me wrong signals,

One day, time will come

when we are not too busy, when we are old enough, 

I would run to you 

If it this would be the same

And I would hug you telling I can be the one who will steal your surname.

          For now, I want to you to understand and I will do the same. I will not put in my mind that your words are for me and I don't want you to think that I match my phrases to you. But please, I feel hurt, so please be that way or not.