The Un-Invited Guest

There is a certain occasion that I expected that I will be invited but wait!...I'm not???
Well, at that very moment, yes I'm quite upset and thinking a lot of questions in my head why they didn't invite me. And gave my own nuts answer which make me really upset. 

But after drinking a cold drink and breathe, I realized that I need to move on. And just understand that they are just doing a practical way (maybe) on their budget and they had a valid reason. And having this kind of thinking made me feel better and not holding any sulking feelings. Which affect my reactions any future occasions that I will not be invited. Though I admit that it's quite hard to set your mind that way specially when they are so close to you. But you need to put yourself on their shoe right?

And perhaps, there are also some occasions that I CANT  invite all of my friends and maybe soon there will be a special occasions that I cant invite all the people I knew or all of my friends and relatives. Some may felt the same feelings that I express in the beginning of this blog but I hope they will realized also what I did. 

They say that we can't have it all and it's true specially when the reason is out of the budget. 

So don't sit there and cry or talk to your friends telling how disappointed you are. Smile and just be happy. 


Don't Be Too Pink

L O V E  

I don't know why, why I like the feeling, the goosebumps, the warmth in my heart, the noise of the beats and pulse in our body and the voice inside my head that keep on telling me to go on, to continue because it feels good. 

My brain is bombarded with thoughts with love, moments, cuddles and dates like fairy tales but then like that story some stupid meddler interrupts but LOVE it will conquer. I don't care who will I step in, who will left behind, who my friends are, who you are, or who will stop or support me, All I know is you and me.

Strong desires for your touch and your scent that made me feel so addicted. Like when you are there touching me, feels like we are the only people around and we are in the right path. My body craves your body like magnets and stickers. The touch of your hands that pulling my soul to be with you. And I don't care what those tiny malice brains will think. All I want is us and sink.

Some little fights, few argues and misunderstands. Childish reasoning while truth slaps but still love making me wide awake and mesmerized. People try to take off my glasses and wash my face with cold water saying our flaws and slap me with reality but still I'm innocent blinded.

That rings, that day it fits on my little finger, truth slapped me with truth and reality. That goosebumps, butterflies and my sweet love are only of first years. No more surprises, no more firsts, no more excitements to see you, no more lingerings, no more petty talks, no more flowers and chocolates and no more sneak dates, no need to fight for love and no more day dreams. Baby cuddles will be household chores and touchy gestures will be bills and laundry. Sneak dates will be bed snores and sleepless fights. Fairy have no tales and no heart balloons instead real fights and real talks. 

No more bestfriends but true friends who never leave me even I did when I am so blind with pink. True friends who help me to see things with different colors and people that now I feel that I care. And now I see that world is not about you and Love. And now, love is not perfect but with two imperfect person leaving in one roof, who vowed to be together for the rest of our lives and the fact that we can't withdraw our vows. 

Now, you know what true love is?
"Love...  does not rejoice over unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.  "

True Love isn't selfish, it cares, it does not trampled anyone badly, love is about spreading love and made you go to maturity, maybe not fast but you will get there. Love is not just about the two of us, it is a Three cord relationship. Love isn't about separating or giving up when difficulties arise. Love is being together no matter how hard the situation is. Love is loyal and love does not have a happy ending but knowing each other day after day until the last breath. Love will teach you to forgive and forget day by day. Love is having circle of friends including your best friends, your mate. 

And love is not being blind, love can see, can hear and can sense. And love is not pink, its a wonderful color with black and white. 

And this...

is what I say to myself, what will I say to myself and what I have to say to myself. Guys! I'm in a relationship but not yet married. Don't get me wrong about this. I'm not pathetic or hypocritical here, but sometimes, I have too....No! I need to put my thoughts in writings so I can go back and read it again. And keep on reminding myself to "hey! hey miss! you are not a teenager with puppy love. Grow up!"

Just in case you have additional phrases or thoughts, feel free to comment or tag me in your post!

Stay in Love!
But stay in your mind! :)