The Un-Invited Guest

There is a certain occasion that I expected that I will be invited but wait!...I'm not???
Well, at that very moment, yes I'm quite upset and thinking a lot of questions in my head why they didn't invite me. And gave my own nuts answer which make me really upset. 

But after drinking a cold drink and breathe, I realized that I need to move on. And just understand that they are just doing a practical way (maybe) on their budget and they had a valid reason. And having this kind of thinking made me feel better and not holding any sulking feelings. Which affect my reactions any future occasions that I will not be invited. Though I admit that it's quite hard to set your mind that way specially when they are so close to you. But you need to put yourself on their shoe right?

And perhaps, there are also some occasions that I CANT  invite all of my friends and maybe soon there will be a special occasions that I cant invite all the people I knew or all of my friends and relatives. Some may felt the same feelings that I express in the beginning of this blog but I hope they will realized also what I did. 

They say that we can't have it all and it's true specially when the reason is out of the budget. 

So don't sit there and cry or talk to your friends telling how disappointed you are. Smile and just be happy. 


Don't Be Too Pink

L O V E  

I don't know why, why I like the feeling, the goosebumps, the warmth in my heart, the noise of the beats and pulse in our body and the voice inside my head that keep on telling me to go on, to continue because it feels good. 

My brain is bombarded with thoughts with love, moments, cuddles and dates like fairy tales but then like that story some stupid meddler interrupts but LOVE it will conquer. I don't care who will I step in, who will left behind, who my friends are, who you are, or who will stop or support me, All I know is you and me.

Strong desires for your touch and your scent that made me feel so addicted. Like when you are there touching me, feels like we are the only people around and we are in the right path. My body craves your body like magnets and stickers. The touch of your hands that pulling my soul to be with you. And I don't care what those tiny malice brains will think. All I want is us and sink.

Some little fights, few argues and misunderstands. Childish reasoning while truth slaps but still love making me wide awake and mesmerized. People try to take off my glasses and wash my face with cold water saying our flaws and slap me with reality but still I'm innocent blinded.

That rings, that day it fits on my little finger, truth slapped me with truth and reality. That goosebumps, butterflies and my sweet love are only of first years. No more surprises, no more firsts, no more excitements to see you, no more lingerings, no more petty talks, no more flowers and chocolates and no more sneak dates, no need to fight for love and no more day dreams. Baby cuddles will be household chores and touchy gestures will be bills and laundry. Sneak dates will be bed snores and sleepless fights. Fairy have no tales and no heart balloons instead real fights and real talks. 

No more bestfriends but true friends who never leave me even I did when I am so blind with pink. True friends who help me to see things with different colors and people that now I feel that I care. And now I see that world is not about you and Love. And now, love is not perfect but with two imperfect person leaving in one roof, who vowed to be together for the rest of our lives and the fact that we can't withdraw our vows. 

Now, you know what true love is?
"Love...  does not rejoice over unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.  "

True Love isn't selfish, it cares, it does not trampled anyone badly, love is about spreading love and made you go to maturity, maybe not fast but you will get there. Love is not just about the two of us, it is a Three cord relationship. Love isn't about separating or giving up when difficulties arise. Love is being together no matter how hard the situation is. Love is loyal and love does not have a happy ending but knowing each other day after day until the last breath. Love will teach you to forgive and forget day by day. Love is having circle of friends including your best friends, your mate. 

And love is not being blind, love can see, can hear and can sense. And love is not pink, its a wonderful color with black and white. 

And this...

is what I say to myself, what will I say to myself and what I have to say to myself. Guys! I'm in a relationship but not yet married. Don't get me wrong about this. I'm not pathetic or hypocritical here, but sometimes, I have too....No! I need to put my thoughts in writings so I can go back and read it again. And keep on reminding myself to "hey! hey miss! you are not a teenager with puppy love. Grow up!"

Just in case you have additional phrases or thoughts, feel free to comment or tag me in your post!

Stay in Love!
But stay in your mind! :) 

A Fearful Buoyant

Fearful Buoyant?

Yes, I simply describe myself like that. I am a fearful buoyant. I used to always look at the bright side but still I have a lot of fears. Let's say that I'm little always positive in any circumstances but also scared to do / try and to fail.

I am Chaeypruz by the way. 

And so you are here at my blog reading mixed stuffs that I wrote. It may help you somehow or not (sorry for that). I really don't know how will start writing the content of this page "About Me". But visiting my blog often will...not gonna let you know who really I am. (I guessed HAHAHA) Well, at least it will give you idea what type or person I am. 

I am a little (yeah physically I am little) sunshine with a little hurricane.
Sounds crazy right? But yes! I am crazy and sort of happy but with a twist of hurricane -dark side- and naive.

The Aim of this blog is not to please you or anyone, I made this to shares some positiveness and my thoughts, ideas, places I've been, or food I ate or the people I'm with.  

Maybe Who Knows

Hello There, Is anyone reading my blog? (say yes please)

I'ts getting hot here in Batangas. And I'm sweating a lot now a days than normal and take a bath not just once but twice and sometimes thrice. For sure I am not alone in this situation. 

Well, let us make ourselves cool so we can avoid getting dehydration or heatstroke. Keep safe everyone!

Anyways, It is been two weeks since I have my last job. I don't have any contract with it and since it is not worth staying (working from 6am up to 8pm with just a hundred) I quit!. So here I am broke (but not really poor HAHA) but not so sad because soon I'll find one. 

Hey, fellas do you have any idea what company here in Batangas that hires part-timer?

If any, please let me know. 

Thank you!

This Distance is killing me!

So I'm now suffering to what bloggers called "writer's block". Why? I really don't know exactly. At first I thought that I have pending article to post, but it's a story that I haven't finish. 

And this is might be the reason...I'm drowning in thoughts.

When you are in a long distance relationship it made you hang on nothing, think endless and blank (like you are floating without your senses). But the facts that I have so many thoughts in my head this past few days but I'm so lazy to write it down, some I did but I ran out of words to say. 

When you are in a distance everything will be a challenge and from time to time you will fight from simple misunderstanding, more reasons to argue with some different point of views and stress for not being there for each other. Sometimes the feeling of being failed for not being enough is quite tiring. Long distance isn't normal, ops! don't think we are ABNORMAL! NO! We aren't! It just we are not the normal or usual couple together. Yes, we can't hold hand, cuddle and date like others because we are separated by the widest sky and longest sea.

There are times you need to endure the longing, the cravings for each others company, the childish cuddling and the dates, and all this that make you just lay down in your bed looking at his photos and fell asleep. (Crazy things). There were fight that you don't have a choice to be "pabebe" or hard-to-get "hard to please" but to forgive and understand because in some point he isn't there to please you and second you don't want to spend days without talking to each other.

But the thing is... this distance proves how Love is true or just fancy thing. Because True Love endures.

How couple like us will survive in this kind of relationship? How? The answer is from the couple itself, like us!

When "Too Late" is Late?

Sitting on a bench, looking at my watch, trying to enjoy the view of the people in the park and keep calm while waiting for you.

Tik! Tok! Tik! tok! says the clock.

At first I was enjoying everything because I know you will come despite of the heat of the sun that gives me warm and irritating sweat in my body. I wiped it worrying that it will turn you off and smile because the wind helps me to dry it.

I saw different people passes by from children begging their food up to lady who left her unfinished expensive meal in a fine dine, I saw the mall and stores on their opening and saw the the sweeper starting to have their coffee and light their cigarrettes to start.

I witnessed how the leaves from the trees sway and fall, how the butterfly flew from one flower to another, how the icecream melt from falling on that clumsy kid and the night shifters going home.

And a sudden sounds i started to hear...oh! My tummy! Its lunch time and I need to eat. I thought of eating delicious burger meals from the near fastfood but then I smell the grilling meat on the near by coffee shop but then I decided to just bought the street food. Wanna know why? Because you are coming and I dont like to miss it, i wanna see you come.

Tik! Tok! Tik! tok! says the clock again and again.

The sun began to slowly hide and say good bye. And I'm started to feel bad for myself and get worried where are you at. My phone recieves no message from you nor a call. I decided to back read our previous conversation and we are happy to meet back then as I thought. I wanted to sent a message to tell you that I was there waiting but I dont want you to think that I'm making you rush or that you are obligue to come and pick me.

I wasn't enjoying the scenery anymore even in this bloody sunset view in my front because my eyes are watery and warm, my clothes are sweat and smell like the kid playing in the field all day and my lipstick is fading. I also began to felt tired and exhausted. So i texted you just to inform you that I was there. But then i recieved no reply. I browse your facegram and see some photos that you are enjoying with some friends. And so tears drop on my phone.

Speechless and tired I left the bench that I occupied for that time and leave a mark, my watch and a hanky where your name was embroided.

And went home, pack my things and get ready because I recieved another Invitation, the sender assures me that He will come... He said he is already there waiting.

On my flight, before the crew ask me to turn off my phone here is your message saying you are on your way to meet me.

Heart Breaking Commercials in PH

A friend asks me to watch the new commercial of Jollibee and it just broke my heart (sorry, I cry easily, in short I'm emotional person LOLs). I really wonder why they need to do such sad story for a commercial. Does it catch more costumer? Well, Good job!

The poor best friend who fell in love with his bestfriend and become the best man of her wedding. Is he too slow to confess? Or too coward? Or just waiting for the right time? How can it be right time if it is to late? Base on what i see the girl likes him too and just waiting but then there's a guy who treated her what she deserved. And the boy bestfriend is happy for her dear bestfriend and crying because he isn't the man she will gonna marry. Ouch!

It was McDonalds who first (I guessed, correct me if I'm wrong) released heart breaking commercial starring the young actress Elisse Josson. And then now the Jollibee. What's wrong with them?

I'd like to suggest Chowking a story (true story) so they can go with the flow. HAHAHA