This Distance is killing me!

So I'm now suffering to what bloggers called "writer's block". Why? I really don't know exactly. At first I thought that I have pending article to post, but it's a story that I haven't finish. 

And this is might be the reason...I'm drowning in thoughts.

When you are in a long distance relationship it made you hang on nothing, think endless and blank (like you are floating without your senses). But the facts that I have so many thoughts in my head this past few days but I'm so lazy to write it down, some I did but I ran out of words to say. 

When you are in a distance everything will be a challenge and from time to time you will fight from simple misunderstanding, more reasons to argue with some different point of views and stress for not being there for each other. Sometimes the feeling of being failed for not being enough is quite tiring. Long distance isn't normal, ops! don't think we are ABNORMAL! NO! We aren't! It just we are not the normal or usual couple together. Yes, we can't hold hand, cuddle and date like others because we are separated by the widest sky and longest sea.

There are times you need to endure the longing, the cravings for each others company, the childish cuddling and the dates, and all this that make you just lay down in your bed looking at his photos and fell asleep. (Crazy things). There were fight that you don't have a choice to be "pabebe" or hard-to-get "hard to please" but to forgive and understand because in some point he isn't there to please you and second you don't want to spend days without talking to each other.

But the thing is... this distance proves how Love is true or just fancy thing. Because True Love endures.

How couple like us will survive in this kind of relationship? How? The answer is from the couple itself, like us!

When "Too Late" is Late?

Sitting on a bench, looking at my watch, trying to enjoy the view of the people in the park and keep calm while waiting for you.

Tik! Tok! Tik! tok! says the clock.

At first I was enjoying everything because I know you will come despite of the heat of the sun that gives me warm and irritating sweat in my body. I wiped it worrying that it will turn you off and smile because the wind helps me to dry it.

I saw different people passes by from children begging their food up to lady who left her unfinished expensive meal in a fine dine, I saw the mall and stores on their opening and saw the the sweeper starting to have their coffee and light their cigarrettes to start.

I witnessed how the leaves from the trees sway and fall, how the butterfly flew from one flower to another, how the icecream melt from falling on that clumsy kid and the night shifters going home.

And a sudden sounds i started to hear...oh! My tummy! Its lunch time and I need to eat. I thought of eating delicious burger meals from the near fastfood but then I smell the grilling meat on the near by coffee shop but then I decided to just bought the street food. Wanna know why? Because you are coming and I dont like to miss it, i wanna see you come.

Tik! Tok! Tik! tok! says the clock again and again.

The sun began to slowly hide and say good bye. And I'm started to feel bad for myself and get worried where are you at. My phone recieves no message from you nor a call. I decided to back read our previous conversation and we are happy to meet back then as I thought. I wanted to sent a message to tell you that I was there waiting but I dont want you to think that I'm making you rush or that you are obligue to come and pick me.

I wasn't enjoying the scenery anymore even in this bloody sunset view in my front because my eyes are watery and warm, my clothes are sweat and smell like the kid playing in the field all day and my lipstick is fading. I also began to felt tired and exhausted. So i texted you just to inform you that I was there. But then i recieved no reply. I browse your facegram and see some photos that you are enjoying with some friends. And so tears drop on my phone.

Speechless and tired I left the bench that I occupied for that time and leave a mark, my watch and a hanky where your name was embroided.

And went home, pack my things and get ready because I recieved another Invitation, the sender assures me that He will come... He said he is already there waiting.

On my flight, before the crew ask me to turn off my phone here is your message saying you are on your way to meet me.